Saturday, March 09, 2013

God's Gift To Me

I just had to share this silly story of Josiah with you guys. I was putting on his dinosaur pajamas last night (they are his favorite), and he started to roar and I was like oh, no these pajamas are turning you into a real dinosaur!! So for the next 10-15 minutes every time he ROARed I would scream or say oh, no! Then I told him, can I have my little boy back now? Please? And he just looked at me, went behind my power chair, did a small scream, and came running back to me. I was like oh, it is you! You aren't a dinosaur anymore! lol It was the cutest, sweetest thing. I love how he got that concept. He is growing so fast, and I love every single minute of it.

I am so thankful that I can stay home with him. Sure there are days when I want to pull my hair out, and I desperately want to talk to somebody besides a two year old. lol But honestly, even on those days I wouldn't trade the life I have for anything! He is my sunshine, my heart, and the perfect blend of Ben and I. When I think of how many years I waited and prayed for a child. How I begged God to let us have one. How I begged that my health would become stable so I could.... The one doctors said I couldn't have. The one I bawled my eyes out for thinking there was no hope I'd ever have one. No joy in sight... And now I see my little miracle baby. Because even though I have a disability, God decided to bless me with a sweet, cuddly, dirt-streaked little boy. :-) I am just so blessed. Beyond measure. Josiah keeps me going when I feel awful or in lots of pain. His sweet smile, hugs and kisses really do make things better!!!

I love teaching him things and seeing how everything is so new and exciting through his innocent eyes. How I wish I could bottle it all up and save it for years from now when he's off to college.... But I can't. Which is why I have to savor every moment, every first, every new accomplishment for that day when he has left the nest. I have to keep teaching him and nurturing him and showing him the wonder of God so that when he does leave I'll know that with God's help and His strength I've done the best I could for him. He is one of the best gifts God has ever given me. How I treasure him. And oh, how I thank God for him every single day!


Keiza said...

How I enjoy your posts! Thank you for being so open and real about your ups and downs and about God's loving hand on your life. You are a life encourager. It's true that when we have children (if we're doing something right) we grow while they grow - just in a different way. May your life's journey continue to reveal God's wonders and awesome grace to you. He is amazingly faithful. ;)

Maria said...

Thank you so much!!! Your post meant so much to me. :-) Thanks for taking the time to encourage me! Sometimes I feel like nobody reads my blog. :-D